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wuts up with my personality..

I was very tired, more then I usually, at VB this week. Thought I do back to back kids club and youth night that day, there was just something else making me tired. Regardless of what it was, as I was saying my goodbye's to the kids and youth and packing up to leave, my eyes caught a mother and children that I had not seen before. Though honestly, it would have been easier for me to leave and come back some other time, I started off towards the family. After hearing about how they got there, and what their dreams and their prayers were as they entered into this time in their life, I was able to share with them a little of what I have seen the Lord do in the community and what He desires to do in our lives as people. The mother shared her testimony and though she professed Jesus, I was still glad I that the Lord gave me the courage to walk over and introduce myself, minister and pray with her, and give glory to the Lord for what I have seen him do.

My studies this past week brought me back to Matt 6:33. As I minister in the apartments throughout the week, I am reminded to apply His word here in view of how I act or react to any given situation, such as one above. My point is, when circumstances arise or life progresses as it does, do I seek first the kingdom of God? Do I realize more and more where my emotions go, my own biased ideas, my own schedule, my own priorities? Everything else is second place, if not just totally dropped at times. How am I seeking to glorify Him in my daily routine or job or even in my relationships or in my marriage? Do I actually seek God's kingdom first or is my first reaction in any and every circumstance to complain or give up or shake my fist at God as if seeking first His kingdom was easy in the first place? Do I seek God's kingdom where I live? Do I do so when I am in apartments, and willing to see beyond my planned program when I am there? Does God's word change me.. does it change my personality when God wants it to??